Saturday, July 14, 2012

Happiness

When I waver between doing what I know is right for me and what I know will make other people happy, I always end up making the wrong decision.

This month I made some major decisions, with no one else's happiness in mind but my own. I'm finalizing my divorce from little man's father, let the chips fall where they may as far as custody is concerned - I'll fight him with everything I have if he tries to push me any further on our current 50/50 agreement. I left a long-term live-in relationship after two years of fighting and being told that all his problems were my fault. I made friends and actually spent time with them, and I refused to feel guilty about having fun with people other than said live-in boyfriend.

And... I fell in love with someone I never expected to even like, and we're planning our future together. I'm tired of settling, and it turns out all I had to do was make up my mind and move on... the right man practically fell in my lap. (Actually, I quite literally fell into his!)

I've tried keeping up with a blog in the past, but I knew everything I wrote was being monitored by my ex, and I could never really say what was on my mind. It's incredibly freeing to say what you mean. I think I'll try to keep going with this blog for a while as I work on changing my life. Happiness is attainable, I think.


PS. Did I mention there are big changes ahead?  :)